People are just temporary... They are just illusion

So...
Friends.. what are they?
"I will always have your back!"
we all have heard this at least once
Then where do you go when i need you the most?
leaving me alone and you  moving forward..
As if it was nothing
wow..
but you know what you didnt surprise me because
after a point i realized no one on the  earth is my friend..
What the fuck did i  do that you are leaving me behind
and moving on..
You forgot all i did for you as if those took me a second do
I made new friends i didnt forget you..
I ignored some for your's sake.
And now you dont want to be my friend..
I dont blame you i blame myself for believing you that you will   stay with me in hard times
but "LOL" on me
I believed you.
You are just like all of those people back there
Temporary.. I keep all of your secrets
You showed me. that i cant believe anyone and no one is my friend.
I was the only one fucking person who had your back when everyone turned their back away from you..
Do you remember those?
no how would you?
Because you were blind and you are still

Yeah obviously you wont never read it and if you do you wont care..
Fuck your own ego :)
You will never mind someone like me
I repeat never
Peace! 

Be Proud of Your Parents, They are Gift of your Life, Never be Embarrassed of Them.

You are not proud of your parents..
You don't want them to appear in front of your friends because you feel like they will make you feel down and make you feel embarrassed.. But you know what?
When you are  successful at something your friends will never be "Happy" about the fact you did it, instead they will be jealous, they will be negative about it. The only people who will be proud of you is your  parents. They  will feel that "Yes, my son did it." and all they want from you, is a part of time of your day and that all.. But All we do is... ignore them, Show my temper on them. Your mother is  strict with you, doesn't mean you will do whatever you want with them.
There are some people who cant even dare to talk with them for anything.
Be Proud of Your Parents, They are Gift of your Life, Never be Embarrassed of Them. 

Acquaintance are not Friends

You believe that acquaintance are actually  friends, You know them for few days, same age or same class and You believe they are friends dont you?
But You really thing she or he is a actual friend?
just because they are just being a bit toward you by that i mean friendly..
You may not release that the person you talk with is not always a friend
its just a acquaintance..
Maybe you know them for 2 years and he/she is open with you claims to be your bestfriend or close friend at least... You never know when you may get trapped in their traps.
They feel disappointed
you feel sad
you feel everyone is against you
but you know what?
that not even a real friendship
If they were they wont ever feel ashamed to speak, introduce you in public.
They would always encourage you to do good stuffs.. And Discourage to do the wrongs.
but they do the opposite.. dont they ?
You start smoking because your friends encourage you to... You take drugs or even drink or try alcohol just because of your friends or cousin's influence ( note i m a non addict and smoker, thats just a example)
They would make  you Raise but not go down if they do
they i would have to say "Change your friends" "They are not your friends but just a Aquitaine"

Guess what?
i was trapped in the same kind of Trap..
I thought they are friends but they never were.. They just wore another musk under 10 more masks..
Give Status on facebook is just stupid i prefer sharing this on a blog like real mane tho i know after 10 years from now or 20 years i wont even remember their names
They will be maybe Facebook friend or Instagram Follower while you are following..
You will be on your own busy with your wife and baby
Whats really gonna happen.. Maybe would regret or laugh about this on those days thinking how immature you were..

Thats what really going to happen...
SO CHOICE FRIEND CAREFULLY...
AND HAVE ONE BUT REMEMBER THEM FOR EVER..
I M LAUGHING AT THE FACT WE WONT BE FRIENDS AFRER
A YEAR FROM NOW MAYBE...
GOING TO DIFFERENT CENTERS
STUDYING DIFFERENT SUBJECTS
GETTING DIFFERENT JOBS
AND LIVING OUR OWN LIFE.. :)
  THEN WHATS THE POINT OF DISAPPOINTING ONE TODAY ?
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Never Give up on your Depression

that moment when you are stuck in a world of your own, with sadness that you can't share with anyone... 
you know you are sick and overthinking.. You think about all the regretful things you did in life.
you feel like no one will up there for you. you are just a lonely fellow
there are people who say they care about you but they don't actually
when you try to share your feeling people either laugh or they say oh, hmm and other irritating replies, not realizing  how you actually you feel. This is the worst feeling ever and also when you realize that this might last for a  year... All you want is to be happy again just like before.
You want it to be the last day of your life...
But the fact when you get depressed you get to know how happy life you were.
Parents will never get or understand about your feelings.

Yes you are the only person who is facing this problems..
People uses a various techniques and make it their bad habits
doing self-harm, smoking etc..You are surviving without doing this, trust me you are on the right track... few more days.. then you will go back to the  regular life..
This bad habits you might get will make you happy for a  moment but not forever.

Try to love yourself first
then love your family
they did alot for you.
Suicide is not an opinion it means you gave up your life on a foolish sickness..
Maybe the day after you die was the day you will be back in real life..
No one knows what may happen next.
and most importantly
You say you want to die but you are most scared of Death.
It seems easy to get up and die but it is not..
Though i never tired to do that. but the moment i think of doing that, the moment i realized how much i love my life.
A panic attack tells you how much you love your life.
you are just in a mission (age) with so many challenging works you have to do (due to hormonal rush) if you finish the mission you finish the game..

Share your Feeling with people who cares
Stay and love those people who  loves you the most
Dont Hate the Haters, let the haters hate you
And Most Importantly Never Give up
Because this is temporary
But you are permanent 
Written by: Raafiu Mahmood 

The Term Respect

Our Family teaches us to respect every single people on the earth.
Doesnt matter if she or he is older or younger..
But this is not something some people deserve...
You will do random shits.. and we will be tolerating
impressive but yes we will do but doesnt mean for a very long time...
There is a Term "karma" you might have hard alot
that will take our revenge...
Just because you currently so the so called "Best"
thats the reason you are at this position..
You forgot those who helped you when you were none..
They made you the best in front your friends and then now you hate them..
Plans to stab them on their back.. Spread rumors about them
whereas they respected you the most.. And did a lot for you .
You dont deserve anyone..
you are the most hated person among all but they say nothing because you are the so called "Best" :)
Remember that ^_^  

A Little Donation can make your day!

So waking up in the morning where i slept at 3am and talking up at 7am. Its so hard. Going to Coaching Center one to another.. doing class. I went to class and it was a regular day after my maths class went to my home.. I felt there will be no food to eat when i go back so i did as my mind recommended me to do. Then after going home, then i got to know my sister was sick. This makes my feel worst. Whenever she i feel the worst and start panicking myself.. I went out to bring medicine and came home quick and gave it to my mother and then after studying for a while i had to go to another class to join. on road i was totally out of mind. Music going on the car and me sitting and tiptop silent.. Then join class 15 mins late and Sir asked to put my hands away from my arm. He was supposed to to beat me with a scale for not bringing book but reflex action i pust my hands on my arms and i got hurt on my finger and still i was doing fine but it was awkward for me to student to beside i usually sit on the front side. Then  while coming home due to  traffic my driver trying to take another route and he went to a wrong street and it was so narrow we got stuck and moved backgroud and got stuck in traffic for another 30 mins and while that 2 young students came from no where and asked for money i was reading the box and i was not actually willing to give them anything i was depressed at the moment then something happened and i felt i should give them and i gave them sum of money and he said "Thank you Bhaiya!" and smiled that made my depression flew away.. I was feeling so good that because they were happy because of me. 2 things make me the happy most When someone laughs for me and when someone smiles for me. "for me" doesnt mean they laughed or smiled as i asked to  but because of my action or act which was intended to make them laugh. May this wasnt the best example how can a little donation can make u happy but just me try yourself it will give a great relief when they appreciate your donation or i couldnt express the story perfectly but thank you so much for reading the whole story and Hope you will smile at least smile after reading it and Stay Happy!
+Raafiu Mahmood 

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